I am the youngest and most loved and pampered child in the family. I went from being the BOSS of everyone to being a Nobody to the Dallas community when I got married and came to Dallas.
Everyone was busy and lost in their own lives. No family, no friends, no job, only thing I had was hours of college work to look forward to. Within a year of marriage, came the first biggest blow of my life. A miscarriage. While we were still settling down with the pregnancy news, this happened. Life moved on for all, but me. Could not process or make sense of what is happening with me. Why me? Why this? Did not even share the misfortune with family as that end was going through their own struggles. But, that left me sour, bitter and aggravated. No one to talk to, not a shoulder to lean on. For next few years we did not plan the baby, and when we did, it happened again for 2nd time, and 3rd, over and over. Left me aghast. Left me wounded. But made me courageous. Made me wise. I emerged stronger. I understood, why me. It was me, because I was strong enough to process this, willing to emerge out of it bitter-less, and appreciate what I HAVE in my life. After several misfortunes, rainbow baby "Siddharth" arrived without any struggle. I understood one thing. Bhagvad Gita said "You receive ONLY when your designated time has arrived, before that time and more than what your luck has in store does not belong to you". My baby boy changed a lot of things for me. He gave me hope, peace and pure love. I was always a strong headed, very hard-working, go-getter career woman. I slowed down, paced down, took it easy and chose to enjoy motherhood. I took a complete backseat in lot of things and I must say - it eased me down. I saw his first walk, his first tooth, heard his first words, saw his first fall, and enjoyed my parents support in bringing him up. And vrooom - there was his first birthday. Both me, and my husband had lost our employment, with no idea what is ahead of us, had plans to have a huge big party to celebrate my motherhood and Siddharth's first introduction to all our friends. But God is good, God is kind and believe in the power of the supreme everything worked out just fine. In all of this, I always had my spouse by my side, few of my very sweet, kind and affectionate girlfriends by my side and my family - rock solid support just right there when I needed them. Gratitude is all I have for all of them.
Years later, I will say I have a lot of life's lessons to share, some bitter, some sweet, some gentle, some rough but the important part is the continuous learning process. Not all stories are about extraordinary achievements. Mine is just an ordinary one but I sure have faced extraordinary situations that I do not want any to witness. And for me, I plan to get back to Kathak, be a Vlogger, have a vacation house near a beach, but most important, live for today, work for tomorrow and learn from yesterday.
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